הסיפור המלא
Ingrid comes for a first experience. A friend has prepared her in theory, but she knows living through it will be different from knowing about it. She does not arrive with a very precise request beyond wanting to feel more aligned. She thinks some fears may emerge.
The first evening is difficult. She describes sensations in her stomach, sadness, and memories of her life returning. At the end of the ceremony, she is still in that painful state. Then she is finally able to release what had been troubling her and describes feeling lighter.
On this ayahuasca retreat, after the first ceremony, Ingrid experiences a moment of release after a demanding first evening. She had felt pain and considerable sadness, with very precise memories of her life. When it finally eases, she feels deep gratitude. She thanks the people present. After that moment of lightness, she awaits what comes next and the next stage of her experience.
The second ceremony takes her through very different phases: relaxation, a pause in what she feels, then images and emotions. In the second sharing circle, Ingrid says she felt sad, but also moved and touched. The love she perceives around her, and the closeness of the team, have a place in what she shares.
On this ayahuasca retreat, reflecting after the third ceremony, Ingrid feels touched by the group's love. Words are difficult to find, but she describes strong emotions and the team's presence beside her. As she leaves, she does not say everything has become lighter. She says she has felt that love, has been deeply moved by it, and wants to tell the others that she loves them.
In the third sharing circle, after the retreat’s final ceremony, her final account remains brief. She explains that some emotions keep returning and that it is still difficult to finish saying what she would like to say. Even so, a few words find their place: she has felt the group's love, it has touched her deeply, and she loves them.
What her story lets us keep is the precision of these moments: a release after a painful evening, other people's presence, and gratitude that can exist even when everything is not resolved. Ingrid does not have to tell everything for those words to matter.
