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At an ayahuasca retreat, Isabel struggles to connect despite her previous experiences. At the next sharing circle, she corrects herself while describing what she took: the night before, it was psilocybin.
Isabel found the retreat through the website. She already knows ayahuasca: the first night of the retreat is her fifth time taking it. Despite that experience, she describes difficulty connecting. At the first sharing circle, one understanding nevertheless stands out in her account: she felt the creator as an energy of which human beings would be receivers.
For the second night, she specifically speaks of psilocybin. She mainly describes very strong energy and vibrations throughout her body. That kind of sensation is already familiar to her from her practices. She hoped to see or feel something else, and says she did not perceive much beyond that energy.
At the final sharing circle, Isabel explains that she came looking for confirmation. She also mentions an experience with Bufo during the retreat. In her account, she returns to ideas she already held and which she now feels she has experienced inwardly.
She returns in particular to that understanding of energy which appeared on the first night. As she prepares to leave, she says she is happy. What she takes from the retreat is that felt confirmation, even though the experiences did not all take the form she had expected.
