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At an ayahuasca retreat, Myriam takes the place originally booked for her husband. She describes herself as very much in her head. After her first dose, she feels more relaxed and calmer, a change she shares with the group.
At the final sharing circle, Myriam explains that she had not planned this stay. The place was originally booked for her husband. She eventually decided to come, and this retreat is her first experience of ayahuasca.
The first night begins with her feeling privileged: she is chosen first to begin. She describes that moment as magical. Dizziness and nausea follow. She emphasises the help she receives, with care and patience.
She describes geometric shapes in fairly muted colours. Later, a strong feeling of love is present in her account. When she wakes, looking at the mountain seems wonderful to her. Once again, she feels privileged to be there.
For the second night, Myriam specifies that she took psilocybin. She feels joyful and relaxed. The songs are in Spanish and she describes learning them. In the sharing circle, she connects that calm with her usual tendency to be very much in her head.
On the third night, with ayahuasca, she initially notices neither dizziness nor any particular effect after the first dose. Later, she describes amusing images: a kind of metallic web and little animated figures moving up and down and taking off their hats.
The dizziness continues after the ceremony, into her room. She also describes waves of cold connected, in her experience, with the music or breathing. On the final morning, she says she has had an enriching experience that helps her understand many things. She is very tired and feels the need to rest. Her gratitude for the group and the team remains very present.
