The complete story
At an ayahuasca retreat, Florian has his first experience. In the sharing circle, he says he could write a book about it. It was the most intense experience of his life, and getting there was difficult.
In this first sharing circle, Florian describes an experience in which his perception of his body changed profoundly. He felt as though his body were gradually disappearing, then as though he belonged to a greater whole. Music takes on a particular significance: he no longer feels that he is simply listening to it, but that he is the music.
The outlines of things seem to dissolve. He describes matter as space and is astonished by this unfamiliar way of perceiving.
At times, the urge to analyse returns. He reminds himself to let things come. Opening his eyes makes him feel that he is back in the room with the group. Closing them brings him back into that connection. He compares the passage to a veil between two worlds.
He also speaks of geometric shapes, brightly coloured structures and his surprise at seeing them that way. As he speaks, what he expresses most strongly is gratitude and love for his life and for the people he meets along the way.
He wants to keep that feeling for the rest of his life. In the same sharing, he recalls how much the support he received mattered. He thanks the people around him for that care, after a beginning he has described as very difficult.
